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Well, tonight is weigh in! Whether I am going for a gain or a loss, I always look forward to going to weigh in. My leader Gale is awesome and there are a group of girls there that are great motivation! Gale always has great advice and she is very supportive and funny! Sometimes you just have to laugh about a bad week and then move on!!
Last night I went to the gym. I got to the gym at 5:20 and I did the Elliptical for 30 minutes on level 11 cross training program and then I managed to squeeze in 15 minutes on the bike at level 10 random, before I did a 42 minute cardio kickboxing class. That class is awesome and very intense!!! So I think I had a very good work out last night. On the food front, I ate my 20 points and that was it. We will see what the scales have to say tonight! EEEK!!!
I have so moved on from my little episode on Sunday! I was thinking, the last few days, at what point in time did losing weight take over 95% of my thoughts. I think about a lot of the time. Like Friday night Trevor (my husband) and I were in the liquor store and he wanted to get some Irish Cream for me….. Well I love Irish cream on ice!! But all I could think of was the cream, sugar and alcohol. I don't think so! I find that even if I have a few drinks of lower point options like wine or rye and diet ginger ale, I gain weightNot to mention I get a nasty hang over the next day and crave cheeseburgers and poutine!!! So then the spoiled child comes out in me and I get all mad at how unfair life is that I have to constantly be aware of what I put in my mouth!! I just decided though that things like Irish cream do not need to be a daily thing…. So come Christmas, I hope my mother-in-law Kerry has that big bottle waiting for the both of us!!!!
Well my 29th birthday is quickly approaching!!! I can not believe I will be 29 on Thursday!!! I am going to take the do off , and skip my gym work out, yup that is what I said, and I am taking a day off from the gym to go out for dinner with Trevor. We are going to go to either East Side Mario's or The Mongolian Village (were we got engaged!). One place is Italian and the other you pick the raw ingredients for a stir fry and they cook it up for you and give you rice and soup with it!!! I think I feel like Italian…. The garlic bread, Caesar salad, spicy chicken and veggies…… mmmmm yum!!! I know what you are all thinking!!! But it is my birthday and I will count it all in my flex points!
Oh yes, I want to say Congratulations to Paulene! She has lost 9.4 kg (20.7 lbs.) on the WHO 12 Week Challenge in only 7 weeks!! You go Girl!!! You will find me on there somewhere, putting along!!! Congratulaitons to all the girls on this challenge. We have lost 138.2 kg (304.9 lbs.)!!!!
Have a great day everybody!!!
Wendy
Hello, and welcome to my on-line journal!
I am very excited, yet scared to begin this part of my journey! I have been working on my website for months! I keep adding things and changing things, but most of all I was waiting for the right time to make it live for the world to see. I wanted to have an amazing on program weight loss week to report to everyone in my first entry. But I realized last night as I was having a "screw this, I am fed up with this shit" moment that the bad days, gains, binges and sometimes being down right pissed off about it all are just as important as the times when I am completely on program and happy about it!!!
I will give you a little bit of the history that led up to my binge last night. For the last 6 weigh ins I have been developing a pattern: Week 1 Stay completely on program, tons of exercise, eat about ten flex points and I lose around 3 pounds. Week 2 Do the exact same thing as Week 1 and gain a frigging pound!! Week 3: Get home from weigh in, feeling very pissed off and confused, start to binge, but stop and get it under control before I eat all my flex points. Then I do really good all week again and I weigh myself Sunday, I see that I am up another pound and then comes the previously mentioned "screw this, I am fed up with this shit" moment where I go to the cupboards and fridge and I eat and eat and eat until I feel sick!! Then I weigh in on Tuesday and of course I gain and then the process starts again at Week 1. This whole pattern has happened twice now consecutive weeks!!! Blah!!! To make matters even worse I decided after gaining a pound last week and barely avoiding a binge I decided to count my calories this week, each day to see how many I was eating for my allotted 20 points, (I know I should be eating 22 until I get to 150lbs. but my weight got stuck at 160lbs so I lowered it early!) and decided to try and stay below 1200. So all week I ended up eating 19 points and I was starving….. Plus I increased my weight lifting twice a week to a more intense program. (I will post that here some day soon!). This is why I was so mad, when I weighed myself Sunday morning (which I don't normally do because of this very reason!), and my weight was up!
So it all boils down to a huge binge last night….. chocolates, sugary cereal, cup cakes, cookies….. and it goes on! I am so embarrassed!!! But this time I refuse to beat myself up and think about what I did wrong all day. It is over and I feel better and I am back on track! I am going to the gym tonight and the plan is to do at least 30 minutes of elliptical trainer level 11, and 15 minutes biking on random level 9 and then what ever other cardio I can squeeze in (maybe more bike) before a 45 minute Cardio Kickboxing class. That will give me a total of at least 90 minutes of cardio….
Then I am off to weigh in on Tuesday night. I am expecting a gain….. But I will take it with a smile and maybe talk to my leader on the side and ask her what she suggests, because eating less does not seam to do the trick. I am just so frustrated!!! She said last week, that maybe because I am getting closer to my goal that my weight loss will slow down…. a lot. Some people suggested eating some of my activity points. I tried to eat 2 extra points a day one time and I gained. I would be happy with small losses if they were consistent. When I lost the weight before, by eating 1200 calories a day and working out 6 days a week, I never gained weight. It was always losses. But that way of life is just not sustainable!
I have been in the process of a Birthday Challenge for some weeks now. The main challenge was to get below 150 lbs. before my 29th birthday. Well my birthday is Thursday and I gave myself until the weigh in on 1-Nov. It does not look like I will achieve my goal, but I will keep it updated and then at the beginning of next month I will begin a new Christmas Challenge!!!
Anyhoo, enough babbling for now!
Have a great day!
Wendy
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